Lonliness

Well you may think that this is a song that I've written but I just wanna talk about how lonliness has effected me through out my life. Ever since I was kid I've always felt alone,being an only child I always longed for a brother or a sister that could look out for me or could help me out when I needed someone to run to but I never got to feel what other siblings feel. I've always had friends but in the end they would either stab me in the back or I would back them off,looking back now I wish I could've kept some of them or see I can do things differently if I were different then maybe I wouldn't be where I am today,I would always ask God to please if life is like a tape recorder can He rewind it just once more for me. Yeah,I've had relationships but none of them lasted long enough or I just never took a chance to go for it ya know cause I always felt I wasn't better enough and I just didn't have faith. Sometimes I feel like a wandering,drifting spirit left all alone to roam the earth all on my own.